Can A Hymen Repair Operation Make One Feel Like A Virgin?

hi it was always my dream to lose my virginity on my wedding night and i kept going for this dream in my teenage years. until i went pakisatan and got raped by my cousin countless times. i couldnt tell anyone because he threatened to kill me. but i did tell and he is in prison in pakistan. i still have not come to terms with it and my drean broke. but when i heard about hymen repair operation i was happy because i can still make my drean come true. how effective is it and will i once fell like a virgin. this is tha only way i can come to terms with it.