Do You Understand Tolerance Withdrawal From Valium? REDICULOUS! I Was

Do you understand tolerance withdrawal from Valium? REDICULOUS! I was hallucinating from high dosed of Klonapin that my stupid psychiatrist prescribed (I have had 6 psychiatrists now)... about killed me with all this medication... Determined, I tapered Valium (after switching from Klonapin) to 0 (from 60MG) on a slow taper (3 years) .. last dosage was .5MG ..now 2 months later, anxiety through the roof. Prior to Valium (switched to taper per Ashton protocol) was on 6MG Klonapin/ day. And still on Geodon 80 MG and Gabapentin 1200 MG ... akathesia is unreal.. I have to take about 30 mg of Melatonin and an Atarax to go to sleep. Leg jumping .. DAMN GEODON! Benstropine and Artaine counteract that but make me more anxious!!! I have been in the Psych Ward 5 times. All they do is load me up with more drugs! ZOMBIE.. can't think, hold a job is IMPOSSIBLE ... I feel retarded sometimes. These drugs are killing me!!!!
I want to ditch psychiatrist and just be bipolar. Better to be self medicating with alcohol and marijuana instead of this insanity