Doc M 18 And I Start Masterbating Since I Was

Doc m 18 and i start masterbating since i was 13 and after that i get addicted to it really hard cos it feels so good but that tine i was not know its result but now i nlknow but its too late cos my penis is no more straight,no more sperm and even i can't feel anything in it any more please help me please cos i have decided to sucide please
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