Hello, I'm Anshumaan And I Am From India. I'm 19.

Hello, I'm Anshumaan and I am from India. I'm 19. So, basically in India there is a rule in education system that in 11th grade your gotta choose the major subjects you want to study further. There are four options available- Physics, Chemistry, Biology together(PCB);
Physics, Chemistry, Maths together(PCM);
Accounts, Enterpreneurship, Business together; and
Arts(I don't know what major subjects they teach in arts)
So, I always had an aversion with Mathematics, I never wanted to take mathematics anyway. I wanted to take PCB due to my interest in the Biology. But my Dad pressurized me to take PCM, and I had to change my subject in the middle of the session from PCB to PCM. But anyhow, I passed my 12th grade. I wanted to study literature in my college. Now, when the time came to choose the college, I never wanted study Engineering in computer science, my Dad again pressurized me to do it. Now I'm in 2nd year of my college, and I don't like what I study, when I see my classmates doing coding perfectly, I feel hatred for myself why I can't become like them. I hate programming and those things which include it. Every time I say this thing in my family, there's always a quarrel. So, I have started hating myself for what I cannot do, I don't know where my life is going, even if I try to code, I can't do it because I don't feel like it. I'm in extreme depression due to this, I can't sleep at night thinking about my dark future. And there's no way I would be able to study biology again. Please help.