Hello, My Name Is Richard I Have Been Givin Anxiety

Hello, my name is Richard I have been givin anxiety medications off and on for many years now. my last dr'up and retired left me nothing a note on the door saying they are closed for good. so im going through terrible withdrawls. I cant hardly speak or move im scared im dying. my head and neck break out in sweats. ive been to the ER and a.psychiatrist to be told i am an addict. Hello heres my question health care "proffesionals" i have never abused medication i f anything i try to moderate them. I experienced my first full blown panic attack at 24 yrs old. i cant figure out what to do please do not say go to the er or the detox ward. im on ssd documented depression and gad with panic attacks. i need meds to help me ease the transition so im not scarring my brain up tell me if there are drs who can fax a script to my pharmacy after consultations is that some alternative??? what meds could u recommend for all this if im not able to aquire xanax or clonapine.