Hello Sir, I Am 32 Years Old. I Had Masterbasion

Hello sir, I am 32 years old. I had masterbasion habit. 3 years ago I had gonorrhoea symptom . That time I took some medicin. Doctor told me gonorrhoea is gone. But I thing whan I use toilet sprem out with my urine. Whan I talk my girlfriend drop out from my penis. My body is very weak. I eat lots of food. Some time headec. Please advise me what can I do.