Hello Sir, My Name Isxxxx And I M 35 Years

Hello sir,
My name isxxxx and I m 35 years of age.I have two boys.I have been married for last 14 years and from almost 1.5yr I am living separate from my husband along WD my kids.sir mei kabhi itni hyper insecured nahi thi jitni an ho gyi hu.meri married life me bht violence disturbance rhi jiske kaarn mei apne beat friend ke touch me fir se a gyi .ab hum friends se bht jyada hai from last 9 yes lekin mere guse ki wja se insecurity ki wja se mei over react kr jati hu . I really wish to meet and discuss my problem.my ffriend loves me a lot and is fully supporting me in all manners but still I have complaints because I need love and time what should I do to keep a gud relation WD him as well as WD my kids and live a balanced and healthy life