Hi I'm Seline, And I'm Actually Going Though A Lot

Hi I'm Seline, and i'm actually going though a lot right now. I don't know what to do i get so depressed when I cheat or alone that i resort to burning myself or cutting myself or doing drugs. I also tried to overdose on my zoloft location what should i do i don't want to go to a mental hospital again but i don't wanna feel all this anxiety and depression.