Hi I Want To Know If I Have Gender Dysphoria

Hi i want to know if i have gender dysphoria
I have continously watched MTF trabs videos and always feel like I want to be like them, then I started researching how to increase female hormones in my body and i even dressed up as a women. This was the first time since I was about 11/12 Years old. I have had the feelings since then but only now do i feel really strong and confused by them. I was sitting in women clothes and randomly got angry and took them off and threw them across the room. Whilst I was wearing them i had butterflies in my stomach and felt calm and relaxed for the first time In months. I am freaking out, i am shaking physicaly and feel sick i dont know what to do anymore.