Hi My Name Is Dawn I Am 50 Years Old

Hi my name is Dawn I am 50 years old I have been dionosed with as anklosing spondylitis and sle lupus my as is scatterd and also have fibermialgia sorry for spelling my hands don't work so well also ostioposes and scoliouses and the list goes on I was on remicaide foe 5 years 500ml I monthy been on to maney pills that was to help antiimflamatories aie holes in my throat from my gut being tore up and severte gerd.i am also vitum of mesh when removed use found in urin ecoli . I hane heart papatation and have growth growing in my spine and have had several removed also my liver is calcifying on the upper lope I have massive headaches no female organs left ad I thinh that these doc don't know what to do I have had well over 100 nerve burns and countless injections for pain I am tired I don't eat I have lost mylive I was aproffessonal swimmer goodat any sport hunted camp and even went off grid for 5 years and all of a sudden my feet were hurting somedays had to call in sick what is to become of me my body is chaning I had a doc say biologicaly I am weigh older then my age what the h is that suppose to mean so try this pill and call if it don't kill you first at this time I am on a fentnel patch and 3 oxycodones a day . and hormones cause they took my overies out and tubes that wher covered in cysts no answers so what to do and on avastan for high tri and have b12 dis. and edmena what to do I have a 16year old at home father is deceased from respitory faluire. and I was ask this do u want quity of live or to live long when I was put n the remacaide didn't get neither. I really don't what to push the daisies until I see what my childen and grand childen will be as audlts but I think I have been a lab rat for to maney years. And it saddens me I don't understand I don't want to be sick some people do I don't know why but I have been fighting for over 30 years And at the end of my rope But I am A fighter but its hard to fight when you are fighting all the time I cant even get a break at night . sorry for rambling so much but with all the autoimmune problems why don't they study someonelike me to find answers if mt body is attacking itself why cant my body hell its self like cells growth or take out what I have to many of t cells and reduce the the proplem? thx Dawn