Hi My Name Is Portia Roberson I've Had Terrible Peliva

Hi my name is Portia roberson I've had terrible peliva pain for five years now. I had a bladder mesh implant put in five years ago. Every since I've had this terrible pain. I've been in pain magment two years now. Well I've not taken my meds for 9 days now. I'm trying to stop the am. Its just not for me. Is there something I can do are take that is,not hapit forming. I want my life back. Thanks Mrs portia Roberson