Hi, U Might Not Be Able To Answer My Question

Hi, u might not be able to answer my question but I will ask it anyway. I am also a medical professional who is currently seeking re-employment but I must first detox from opiates. long story short I have back problems that led to use of painkillers that led to methadone (190mgs/day) use for three years in order to get off methadone I began using IV narcotics it was the only thing that helped! I am sick and tired of this lifestyle and am currently trying to wean myself off of the IV meds altogether but find it harder than I thought it would be to stop using needles. I never thought I would be saying all this bc I've always been a strong willed person, but the only way I don't feel sick is to take opiates that way. I can detox as far as the first 24 hrs and can't take it anymore once my back feels like it's literally breaking in two and the full ,withdrawal kicks in stomach cramps RLS and all. I don't know what to do when I start to feel that bad. I know clonozepam, muscle relaxers and potassium helps and that staying hydrated is really important but at this one day mark none of it helps. I can't go into a treatment facility bc I will never be able to work in my profession again, (background check) I know you're not a detox specialist but any advice would be helpful! I'm sick and tired of this addiction ruling my life and am way past ready to take back over but can't ever detox past the first day! This is with all the will power I can muster and I really want to be opiate free for me and my family, any advice? And yes, I'm weaning down the amount and frequency of use already but don't know at which point I should switch to oral meds. I'm down to morphine 18mgs IV TID and am dropping by the recommended 20% but just want to be done now I'm so sick of myself being a slave to my addiction. If you can't help please don't let me have it trust me I feel horrible enough already. Thanks for taking the time to read all my rambling, any advice would be great thank you- D. RRT