How Can I Safely Care For And Promote Healing Of A Persistent Tear Under My Penis Tip At Home, And Is There Anything I Can Do To Clean It?

My shorts were riding up and I pulled what I thought was my underwear and shorts but was instead the skin directly under my head of my penis. Right where the skin joins together. It wasn’t that painful but it did hurt and I did yank it pretty hard. After about 2 months it still hasn’t healed properly and I still have pain when I put pressure on the underside where the tear occurred. I can see that some skin is torn still around the right side of my tip where the skin connects, I thought it was healed and had some fun and took things slow and it didn’t hurt any until about 2 weeks later when I tried lifting my penis by putting a finger on the tip and lifting and felt some pretty bad pain. I’m not sure what to do about this, I also noticed during the early part of this that there was a dark colored purple vein that appeared to run up the side of my penis where the tear occurred. Now I haven’t felt well since it happened and I don’t have insurance and I don’t want to go to a doctor. Is there anything I can do at home to help this go away and heal as quickly as possible because I don’t know how much longer I can wait for intercourse with my GF. Also how do I clean the area?