How To Get Rid Of Alcoholism?

hi .I am an alcoholic and I was married five mths ago, but I knew my wife for 10 years,vebeen sober for 2 years and felt into this trap again..i have been doing this for many years now..coming and going from my wife and kids live..i don t know how she could put up with it for so long she deserves the best cus she had been thrugh thick n thin with my stupid alcoholic ass.. she should have left long time ago..