I Am (Priyank Saxena) Suffering From Mid Paranoid Schizophernia And

I am (Priyank Saxena) suffering from mid paranoid schizophernia and on medication since 11 years. This disease onsets when I GOT BEATED WHILE RAGGING WITH IRON RODS ON MY HEAD, BEFORE THIS INCIDENT, I WAS ALRIGHT AND WAS GOOD IN STUDY.If there is any chance of recovery as i want to cure myself just because I love my wife and daughter ,and i know i tortured her badly but i really want to proof my self a god and loving husband. Please help me doctor.