I Am A 25 Year Old Female. I Don't Really

I am a 25 year old female. I don't really feel sexually attracted to him. I don't like when he touches me. I love him and he's a wonderful person. A few weeks ago, we had a fight and I went to see a guy I was attracted to. We had great sex . I know it was wrong but I just wanted to feel desirous. I have not told him. I love him. I'm staying with my mother. I'm so confused. He does have some anger issues but he would n ever hit me. I have never had a medical work up but Idon't want to be with someone I am not sexually attracted to