I Am A 45 Year Old Female Who Has Been

I am a 45 year old female who has been diagnosied with severe mania. I have actively been compliant with all therapy for over 15 years. however when diagnosied it was a start for me to know I could still live a quality of life I thought was going to be over and it was an answer for my mother. 15 years later I have not had much luck with medication however I am very aware of my limitations a truly have learned what I need to be diligent in not allowing poor behavior excused away by my diagnosis. my mother still uses my diagnosis for an answer to manipulate me into either a reason for her to not to understand she is no longer able or willing to support me today because she unknowingly has made me so sick to make any decision in which I know I need for my disease to stay manageable if she doesn't find it important she will make my life so much more difficult and I let her tie my body is telling me to get help. ji am currently am breaking out from some toxin I have injested and I have had a chronic cough and a large mucus sticky like glue large like quarter size comes out once a day. I'm itchiy, my eyes have become so blurry my right arm is acting up and I have found myself allowing her silent treatment paralize me because i am very capable of knowing how not to get to this point and I literally let her do it. I have literally told her and have been getting support for her controling negative lack of information to be able to support or be healthy in anyway because she feels she is a huge support when actually she is so mentally abusive I'm scared I won't be able to get her to hear whats making me so sick is her ignorance about my abiity and knowledege and her lack of when to know what is symptom of mental illness and what is mental abuse