I Am An Undergraduate Student In Sri Lanka. I Wanted

I am an undergraduate student in sri lanka. I wanted to know whether I'm ok with my mental status or not. When it comes to my boyfriend he is always caring about me but always I wanted to be with him and when we argue about some simple thing I always feel that I want to die or do some harmful thing to myself.the thing is not happening only with him.before I meet him I have done lot of harmful things to my self and also I have tried to commit suicide. but the things are always happening with the loved ones. I know that he also suffering because of this thing.