I Am Sahil Hinduja,18 Years Old.. My Parents Are Torturing

I am sahil hinduja,18 years old..
My parents are torturing me from very since my childhood...they abuse me everytime everything...on studies,on not doing work and too many..they are the only one i hate so much...i went to commite suicide even i jumped but i caught the balcony of 4th floor because of my grandmother..i love my grandmother...but i hate my mother....what should i do now?
I have uncontrolled anger sometimes i cry after overlimited anger...