I Am Thinking Of Taking My Life I Am So

I am thinking of taking my life
I am so deppresed lonely worthless useless ugly I cry sometimes for hours a day I have talked to my doctor with no real remedy I can't go anywhere I feel everyone is judging me have

Been molested. As a child .as an adult I was raped many times by now deceased ex husband I have always been in abusive relation ships I am 50yrs old I see no light at the end of the tunnel dont have good insurance so I can't get any help I am always by myself I have no friends no one to talk to that could ever understand what I have been through that is only half of what I'm going through please help me.