I Am Under A Psychiatrist's Care Which She Has Diagnosed

I am under a psychiatrist's care which she has diagnosed me with bipolar, anxiey, & depression disorder. I am presently taking 300mg of Lamictal, and just started on 40 mg of Latuda. I feel deeply depressed, no ambition or energy, cry easily, have obsessive thoughts. Would rather die than live the way I'm living. Have no desire to hurt myself, just thoughts frequently. I do work partime, cook, clean etc. but that is not enough. I have 2 grown sons, & 2 grandsons and that doesn't matter to me. Have alot of fear as well.