I Ate A Dose Of ALD-52. I Got To A

I ate a dose of ALD-52. I got to a point where I convinced myself that I wanted to die. I thought about not wanting succeess if it required an effort, I have tried my whole life to get interested in anything, but it just doesn't work. And at that point of my trip I thought that I don't want to live a mediocre life. The thing is that now that I think so I want to, but I think that the thought of wanting to live is just a reaction from my body that doesn't want to die