I Do Not Know If I Am Normal . My

I do not know if I am normal . My mother has a terminal illness and I have watched her grow worse ( muscular dystrophy) yet I could care less. I do not feel sad or upset at all. My parents marriage is falling apart yet I could care less . I even had to go to myg grandmother's funeral and I was not sad . I often fantasize about harming others or using them to get want I want . I guess my question is if this is normal or if there is something wrong with me.