I Had Apore That Was Tiny But Skin Around It

I had apore that was tiny but skin around it puffy. I would squeeze out the white stuff. Skin fine. Next Month same thing. For two Years. Honestly, I have big pores here and there but EVERYONE tells me how beautiful and youthful my skin is. No wrinkles no crows feet. Picked at this pore finally and made huge pore because I used a sterilized needle. I thought if it was a blackor whitehead I could pop it out omce and for all. DISASTER. Huge open pore right near nose on cheek. Big pore bigger hole with puss coming out slowly. Went to Doctor in NH where I live But am a Bostonian and had best treatmemt available. No car so I wemt to Andover, MA. DR first time said pore infected. No puss under!!!! gave me antibiotic. Went back thwo months later she cut it open. Removed teeny weeney puss ball. I said there;s WAY more in there she said no. Two wekks later looks at hole after stitches came out and squeezed to see, and pop!then puss. And still huge hole with puss leaking out. Went back, she cut me again but deeper I have an x or a + eitherway you look at it. Two weeks later, more puss UNDER skin. Went to Doctor near Boston. Told me cyst under skin, can't see it, not cancerous. if they take it out, which they are contemplating beacuse I was crying. I've had it for 10 months now. results big scar and then plastic surgery. They were all telling me what a beautiful girl I was, how stunning they said. It was unfortunate they said. So now I.m gonna be a freak??? I have always been told great teeth and smile. Great skin. Mom's 78 and barely has wrinkles. Got a few age spots which freak her out but her skin is beautiful. She looks in her 50's. I'm 50 and most people take me for early 30's. It my face amd skin!!!!!!! it's been good to me don't want it to end. Don't wants anymore flaws and scars on my face. Please help??? no surgery, please. Home remedies or anything. It's been too belng to be a freak. And everyone asks me about it. It's awful. What if cut open THREE times. another scar, plastic surgery and it comes back??? Or what if stays there and just erupts someday??? PLEASE I WOULD APPRECIATE AY THOUGHT OR IDEAS OR GUIDANCE. Please.