I Have Already Taken The ECT Treatment 5 Times And

I have already taken the ECT treatment 5 Times and made suicide attempts 3 times and one time am in ICU for that attempt. Now 3-4 months gone from this but now instead of sometimes i can say many times i really wanna make that attempt again. Now I sleep 12-12 hours. Nothing eat. Wanna stay alone. Ma exams are going on now but i can't taking it seriously. What can i do to be as normal for some time.???
Please reply fast Sir...-_-