I Have An Abusive Husband Of 24 Years, I Have

I have an abusive husband of 24 years, I have ovarian cancer , I have No job, money, or family support and only 1 friend close by. I have been to 3 shelters and have had feelings of suicide. How or where do I find real help? I was kidnapped, threatened with a gun between my eyes and held hostage until the SWAT team arrived. I feel overwhelmed and not sure who to turn to?The trauma and after effects are mind altering. Please advise.