I Have Had Several Strokes Am Woman Of 63 Am

I have had several strokes am woman of 63 am crying for a reason but have contolled that long time ago. My first stroke and most serious was in Dec 2000. It was right cereballar w/brain stem included. I am having uncontollable crying again as a shooting took place and was a cousin of my ex-husb(do not talk or have anything to do with him-is very sick both physically and mentally-from going to Vietnam). He has had nothing to do with any of his adoptive relatives for yrs.) I have been very embaressed of myself and him so really haven't had much to do with them. In shooting which took both a husb (cousins son) and her
grandaughter. Why is this happening? Also, should include I, my son--lost 10 month old daughter in house fire yrs ago 1992.