I Have Multiple Myeloma Cancer. I Can Not Walk. I

I have multiple myeloma cancer. I can not walk. I have spent 199 days, 94 days, 36, days and so on it goes. I have lost my sense of smell. I have had 4 rounds of chemo therapy. I have lost 45 % of my lungs and breath oxygen thru my nose wih a tube.I have had good treatment or I would be dead. Technically I have died 3 times been in a 14 day coma. Finally they transplanted my own tube cells back into my body 3 times. I am in constant burning pain that will not go away. They will not treat the pain because of all the pain medicine rules. I just do not know what to do. My immune system was also destroyed so I can not go anywhere not evewn church. I go to my families homes but no where else. I can not stop crying some days Sharon
never mind its just my life