I Want To Cry But Ifeel Unable To Do So.

I want to cry but ifeel unable to do so. i feel numb, pained and unmotivated. I usually cry To feel better. But recently i was forcing myself to keep going, to act tough and to keep a smile on. And it kinda drained me more. But now i cant cry. -havent cried for almost 1 month which is strange for a usually emotional girl- . I have no idea how to feel better now. Im scared, lonely and lost. I need advice..