I Was On My Klonipin For Many Years For Severe

I was on my Klonipin for many years for severe anxiety. I have a doctor who decided i dont need them. It took me several weeks to ween myself off of them. In the last two months i have never felt so awful. I feel a lump in my throat, i have not slept a full night in almost 2 months, i feel bloated, hot flashes have become constant, teeth grinding at night and find myself just not the same. I want to go back to myself at 47 years old, I was feeling fine all these years and some dr decides how i should COPE with my panic and anxiety. PS: It runs in my family. My mother has been on medication, the same one, for near 22 year and she is doing just fine at 75