I'VE BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH PTSD ADHD I CAN'T FIND HELP

I'VE BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH PTSD ADHD I CAN'T FIND HELP CLOSE TO ME I'M NOT SUICIDAL FOR REAL I JUST NEED TO TALK WITH WHAT I WENT THROUGH AS A CHILD UP TO MY TEEN YRS AND MY PHYSICAL AND MENTAL ABUSE IN MARRIAGE PLUS RAPE, I AM NOW RETIRED IT'S ALL COMING OUT NOW WHEN I WAS WORKING I PUT IT OUT OF MY HEAD BUT HAD TO RETIRED BECAUSE OF MEDICAL REASONS. CAN YOU HELP ME PLEASE I NEED SOMEONE TO LISTEN TO MY STORY MY NEW HUSBAND DOESN'T UNDERSTAND.