Im 38 Year Single Young Man.. Im Suffering For Depresion

Im 38 year single young man.. im suffering for depresion and anxiety past 10 years.... i vatted to many doctors . but im not getting well. i had taken almost all the drugs for depresion and anxiety. now i get angry very easily. some time i think my life is nothing im wasting my time and life... then i think about my mother whos alsos suffeing from Hp and suger.. i have Hp prob as well.. now im taking epival 200 mg 2 times .escitalopram 20mg.rivotril 2mg 2 times ..remeron mirtazapine 15 mg at night. and also taking indeal 40 mg and Atenolol (Tenormin)50 mg for High bp..... im not well. im doing nothing due to illness. i dont have good relationship with any one. dont have good realtionshio with my elder bro. he never helped me.. hes doing my father busines and never give me a single rs.. its my father business. he passed awy.so now my bro is running his busines. i fought him many times . im typing and still im getting angry on him. i have 2 much anger right. some time i think i shoot myself........ ufffffffffff then i think this is not the way. so im fighting with my illness. but tell me how long??? plz help me. i dont have that much money.. plz only tell me what can i do.. im sick of tabets drugs. its not tab its drugs. its killing my body. help me.. ishtiaq aghmed. YYYY@YYYY is my id..