I'm 50 Years Old And I've Been On Anti-depressants For

I'm 50 years old and I've been on anti-depressants for years seems of tried them all but I'm sure I haven't. For the last year or more I carry around a very deep sadness and a tremendous amount of guilt for anything and everything that goes wrong. I'm sure everything cannot be my fault. Currently on Rexulti 1 milligram a day. I spend most of my time in bed because my body hurts and I'm sure I have chronic fatigue. I do not feel like committing suicide but on occasion the thought passes my mind that it would be nice. To just not wake up. I do not want to die I want to live but none of these medications are working anymore. You should also know that I've been an on call hospice nurse for the last 10 years I'm wondering since all I do is death and dying and funeral homes could that be part of the problem too. However I was depressed prior to becoming a nurse. Can you recommend any natural vitamins or supplements that do what they say they're going to do?

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