I'm 64 Years Old. I Got Sick With "paranoid" Type

I'm 64 years old. I got sick with "paranoid" type at age 20. This is a very long and complicated history, and you may not like I treated only partially myself with vitamins, and later allergy diet. To stop boring people to death, I knew to take the medicine. When I first got sick, I went right away to a psychiatrist. He wouldn't treat me, but my parents, etc. would always hound me that they hate me, and know how to induce psychosis in a young adult. (NEED ABOUT 10 PAGES OF TESTIMONY/EVIDENCE). My Mother would try to bash my head in, and later dumped me in motels, just for the night, and be there at 9 a.m. I was tortured so that I would be ill, but the actual paranoia was probably from doing dancing. There's no end to my complaints. It's 5:00 a.m. I always try to figure out a way, so that the non-imaginary part of the persecution, still going on to this day will cease. I have many writings and lawsuits, as trying to murder me with insults on the job, and apartment buildings, AND I'M TRYING TO CUT THIS SHORT, FOR ONCE, MY DAD WAS A D.O., G.P. HE SWEARS HE SAID NOTHING BUT "STUDY SOMETHING IN THE MEDICAL FIELD SO YOU CAN GET A JOB", BUT HE TOLD ME TO OPEN UP A DANCE STUDIO AND I ONLY HAD 6 MONTHS OF LESSONS, ETC., ETC.: AND THE QUESTION THAT I HAVE SINCE I'M AN INTERNATIONAL SCAPEGOAT, HATED BY ONE AND ALL: I'M 5'4" TALL, ALWAYS ABOUT 95-110 LBS., BROWN EYES AND HAIR, NOW WHITE, CUTE FACE BECAUSE OF ORTHODONTURE, glasses, and I have an Associate Degree, 10 years late, and former doctor told me I could stop medicine. ALWAYS PEOPLE PLAYING HATE PRANKS, ETC., TAKES MANY PAGES OF TESTIMONY TO DESCRIBE. WOKE UP EARLY SINCE I FEEL THAT PARENTS TOLD DOCTORS THAT I WAS MASTURBATING SINCE I WAS A YOUNG CHILD. I DID NOT UNTIL AGE 18. I'M SO TIRED NOW, WITH ALL THOSE WRITINGS THIS IS A POOR JOB, AND BELIEVE ME NO ONE TAKES ME SERIOUSLY, IT SEEMS, BUT I SPENT ALL TOGETHER 11 MONTHS IN HOSPITAL 1972-74. I WAS OUT 28 YEARS, AND HADN'T TAKEN MY STELAZINE IN A YEAR & 1/2, AND WENT BACK FOR 3 WEEKS, WAS TO BE 10 DAYS, BUT I SIGNED MYSELF IN, AND THAT WAS 13 YEARS AGO. I'M NOT AS SCARED AS PATIENTS USED TO BE. I TOOK ALL THIS TIME 2MG. STELAZINE, BUT WHEN I WAS 22-24 I NEEDED 40 MG. STELAZINE. ONE YEAR, 1979, I TOOK JUST TRANXENE, AND THEN TOOK 20 MG. STELAZINE FOR JUST A FEW MONTHS. MINE IS NOT THE USUAL CASE, MORE IN CONTROL, AND I GUESS, MUCH HAPPIER, EVEN THOUGH I THINK I WAS PERSECUTED WITH "JOKES" FROM PEOPLE THAT WANT ME TO HANG MYSELF. IS THERE ANY WAY YOU CAN DEFEND ME AGAINST PARENTS BIZARRE ANALYSIS? THEY ARE BOTH LONG DEPARTED, BUT ON "PEOPLE SEARCH" ENGINE, THEY ARE NOT LISTED AS DEAD, AND OTHER PEOPLE I KNEW, ARE LISTED AS DEAD. THIS IS JUST ONE OF THE MANY HATE ATTACKS ON ME. I'M FROM THE DETROIT SUBURBS, NOW LIVE IN THE CITY/COUNTRY 75 MILES AWAY FROM DETROIT, BUT "RATS FROM HELL" ON THE COMPUTER, MAY HAVE EVIDENCE THAT MY PARENTS ARE STILL ALIVE, AND THEY WANT ME TO "GO HOME." THE HOUSE REALLY WAS SOLD. FIVE THOUSAND TIMES I WAS ATTACKED WITH LIES, ETC., CAN YOU DO ANYTHING TO HELP?