I'm Gay, 32 Years Olds, And I'm In Love With

I'm gay, 32 years olds, and I'm in love with a straight friend, I give him everything I have, but he's in love with a girl, he told me so many times the he loves her more than anything in this world, he hurts me, I can't get him out of my head, and what's more is that he has gender issues , which gave me so much hope that may be one day he will love me back, nodays he trust me very much, and may be I'm his best friend, espacialy when all his friends betrayed him, but I want more then friendship, I dont ant sex, I want him just to love me back