I'm Not Nessesarily Sure If I Have A Disorder But

I'm not nessesarily sure if I have a disorder but I'm pretty sure. That's why I'm here. I don't feel guilt or love really. I don't feel guilt at all though. I err have killed animals and have a certain...bloodlust...that comes along with that. I constantly Have the feeling like I want to hurt people, have frequent long term mood swings from depression to overly energetic...I can't afford anyone finding out because I'm scared of being taken away... And so I'm here for anonymity. I don't fear death. And I love causing suffering to things although I hate to admit it. And I'm pretty much a loner. I have problems staying close to anyone.