I've Been In Atrial Fib For Many Years And It'

I've been in atrial fib for many years and it' been controlled until last year. I've now got a pacemaker and defibrilater [sp{ . I don't have very good 0xygenated blood delivery and may need a transplant soo. ok now the question lol. the insid of my eyelid is all most white. what does that mean I just now see a charge. Is that true?