I've Been On Wellbutrin For 10 Years I'm In Recovery

I've been on Wellbutrin for 10 years I'm in recovery as a drug and alcoholic, after 10 years clean and sober a surgery helped me realize the best antidepressant is opioids. As it is not part of my recovery plan I've been 100% off I finished off suboxone 30 days ago and I've been horribly depressed and sad, also have personal family issues that don't help. As a cry for help, I went to my doc and he said to try venfaxing I'm 44 yrs old and have to much resposability and people counting on me, I'm scared of a new drug. Only thing that has ever made me feel better is alcohol opiates benzos and marajuana which I won't touch today. E mail is YYYY@YYYY