I've Called Everywhere Dentist Colleges,health Departments Ect Ect. I'm 34

I've called everywhere dentist colleges,health departments ect ect. I'm 34 my baby teeth were cut out due to rotten so bad same as adult teeth came in,my dad gave me kool-aid at 6 months instead of milk to have more beer. I've been bullied beaten even by sisters and prisoner to own home from panic disorder,I was deprived a smile never felt a real smile and infection on top of infection I think it's leaking in My blood,skull throbs,eyes bruise shut,face is swollen and wisdom teeth still in,hallucinate from pain and up 8 days at a time,I can't afford new teeth and don't want to leave me 2 kids here alone,I've tried suicide 14 stitches before kids were here,I'm embarrassed to talk even to them,my dad finally hung himself on she'd and I want a new life and smile to forget him. Any ideas who can help I can't find anyone,I even tried Ellen the TV show.