Recently I've Been Having Some Negative Thoughts. You See, It's

Recently I've been having some negative thoughts.
You see, it's been quite sometime since my girlfriend killed herself and I'm just recently starting to think about her again. I've also been thinking about where I would be if I hadn't told any of my friends.
I care about my friends...a lot. They mean everything to me. I'd risk my life for them. I don't know what I would do without them. Especially my friend Jess. He's a real nice guy, he's the first person I went to talk to about what happened and I'm glad that I can call him a friend.
I only went to three friends and I'm surprised that I held it together. I just kept on reminding myself about what Jess said and how my friends and my family would feel. I didn't want to hurt them and I still don't.