Severe Unexplained Weight Loss, Anemia (caused By Bilrothll Surgery For

Severe unexplained weight loss, anemia (caused by Bilrothll surgery for bleeding ulcers 47 years ago=continuous iron infusions,Veins are shotand now have PTSD from medical problems and a socialpath ex husband and now ARROGANT and quite useless DOCTORS) excruciating pain in entire stomach area with nausea with EVERYTHING I eat or even sip, throat closes off...for 3 months husband had to do Heimlich manuever for even trying to swallow pills(that's mostly gone now) brain dead, exhaustion,accelerated aging, non focusing, motility test non conclusive , no ulcers, (feels like ulcers) had colonoscopy and endoscopySept 2015...nothing. I have always grown my own food or buy organic, don't eat much sweets but love food. I understand this is all in my head (because I really like feeling like this EVERYDAY THaT I EAT instead of being able to play with my grandkids or do things with my friends) and that I'm just depressed (NO SHIT!!!!). This has been going on for 3 years and I'm sick and tired of it and all the failures to FIX IT instead of just covering up the symptoms (so far nothing has worked anyway) I am now looking up different diets to try to heal the debilitating pain and nausea and insomnia on my own. Got any ideas? And, yes, I used to be quiet,submissive and perfect little lady and now I am mad as hell and am making NO bones about it. I have suffered the condescension and arrogance too many times and for years (47) and for naught...they aren't interested in FIXING anything and God forbid they accept the fact that perhaps all the parts of the body are affected by all ...DO I NEED TO PUBLISH A DOT-DOT BOOK FOR DOCTORS so they can see the organs are connected. My brain doesn't work because my gut is screwed up because they cut the vegus nerve and I don't fit on the lines of their text book so I'm just depressed and ,now, angry. Don't get me started on gastroenterologists... WHERE do I begin now? I've given up.