Suggest Treatment For Pain During Intercourse

I GOT MARRIED SIX MONTHS BEFORE.I AM 23YEARS OLD. I DONT HAVE HUSBAND WIFE RELATIONSHIP. THE PROBLEM IS THAT I CAN NOT BEAR THE PAIN AT THE TIME WHEN HE STARTS PUSHING ME. I WANT TO ASK A MEDICINE BY TAKING OF WHICH I WENT SLEEPY AND HE CAN PUSH ME EASILY.I WANT TO DEVELOP A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY HUSBAND BUT I DONT ALLOW HIM TO COME NEAR ME IN MY SENSES..PLEASE SUGGEST ME SOME MEDICINE WHICH IS ALTERNATIVE OF ANESTHESIA BY TAKING OF WHICH I WENT IN STRONG SLEEP THAT I COULDNOT FEEL THAT SOME BUDY IS DOING ANYTHING WITH ME...EVERYBODY SAY TAHT FIRST TIME EVERYONE FEELS PAIN.DOCTOR PLEASE I AM VERY WEAK HEARTED. I TRIED MY BEST TO DO THIS SINCE SIX MONTHS.MEDICALLY BOTH OF US ARE FIT.THE ONLY PROBLEM IS THAT MY HEART IS FRIGHTENED.AND I CANT HAVE CONTROL OVER MY FEAR.HOPE U UNDERSTAND WHAT I WANA SAY.PLEASE GIVE ME ANY SOLUTION.PLEASE I AM IN VERY BAD CONDITION.SAVE MY LIFE.ZNT ANY SOLUTION OF MY PROBLEM????????