Suggest Treatment For Prolonged Fear Of Having Sex Due To Possible Pain

Hi! i want to know if there's any drug or pills that i can take during sex to make me sleep, so that i can't feel the pain of doing it the first time? my husband ani are still virgins for 9 years. And we are suffering alot from my fear of sexual intercourse. Well, i am normal and i don't have any bad experience from past. The only problem is that my mind. I don't know why i can't do it. I don't want to consult a psychiatrist because i know the process and it wont help. All i need to know is, if theres anything that i can take to make me sleep so deep that i will not feel the pain. Please help us. Weve been trying for nine years and nothing happened. :(