Suggest Treatment For Suicidal Thoughts, Severe Depression And Anxiety

Hi, my name is Joshua Alford, I just turned 18 on the 9th. I am beginning to notice some things about who I am as a person, in my younger years, I didn't think much about my behavior, I never really thought any thin was wrong with me, but I've always been a little odd. As I grow older, I've noticed more and more that my behavior is by no means normal, and it seems to have gotten worse. I've been thinking about nothing but suicide the past week or so, I'm losing touch with myself, suffering from severe depression, anxiety as well, i feel like everything I've ever done in life has been a mistake, I'm so sick of fighting this battle with my emotion alone, but I can't hold steady relationships, everytime I get broken up with, I go through bouts of anger sadness confusion, my brain is constantly playing out questions in my head and I always feel like people have altearier motives, I don't want to kill myself because I don't want to hurt my family, but I feel like I can't handle life I need serious professional help.