What Are The Long Term Effects Of Alprazalam. I've Been

What are the long term effects of Alprazalam. I've been taking .05 4 times a day for 9 years for problems caused by the murder of my daughter in 1993 and then my son was murdered in 2013 just for his jacket by a homeless man who has yet to be found, My daughter was shot while in her 6 month of pregnancy with my grandson. Some days I wonder if I am cursed. I cant find a neurologist that takes medi-medi. I have no money