What Causes Overwhelming Feelings And Weird Libido In A Homosexual?

What is wrong with me when I watch a movie from over 6 years ago and remember only as I m watching it but not only the movie...it feels like I have so many feelings that I can t place a single one and it s extremely overwhelming ...like I m not even in my own body adn just watching myself from some weird limbo? Would it have anything to do with the fact that I m gay.