What Do I Do About Ongoing Depression, Lack Of Support, And Recent Suicidal Thoughts?

I am dealing with my depression since 2016 and I attempted suicide last 2019. My psychiatrist gave me an anti-depressant and a pill that will always leads me to 12 hours of sleep. I don t remember the name of that pill. But I assured you that nothing changes about me. I don t talk to my psychiatrist every session because I feel uncomfortable and afraid. After that, I stopped seeking for help. I go hiking and spent more time on the beach every 3rd week. But now, I am facing a hard time through my printed modules and online classes. I also started to get pressure and having trouble doing my tasks. My family doesn t even care about me or how i feel this whole entire year. I mental breakdown and nearly killed myself by cutting my wrist. i always had a nervous breakdown and now i don t know what to do.