Why Am I So Depressed Nightly? I Just Watch The

Why am I so depressed nightly? I just watch The Babadook and Would you rather (They are horror movies) but they aren't scary. The Babadook main characters have depressing lives, and iN would you rather there is torture and suicide (I hate both) and suicide depresses me. But it's no those I don't think. My life is fine too! And I'm only 11 :( Please Help Me!! :(