Will My Seizures, Memory Issues, And Cognitive Confusion Caused By Tramadol And SSRIs Improve, And Will I Recover Fully?

Hi, I am a 57 year old caucasion woman who had knee surgery. I was a clinical Massage Therapist who worked at 2 locations on at a chiropractic office where I would write clinical medical soap note reports for every client I saw. Worked at a Spa as head Massage Therapist training other therapist, having an extensive science degree. And worked on the side with my own clients. Working 50 hours a week driving over 2 hours a day 6 days a week. Then helping on our horse farm after work. I have a Bachalors in Health Administration, an Associates Business Management Degree & an Associates in Science Degree. I was a very outgoing person, could handle any situation, tackle any problem, reliable, easygoing. Loved big events, big crowds. This all has changed. Now I cant even handle doing small tasks, or even going out to the store. Everything seems to overwhelme me. Going to church, doctors, stores all are too much. Even reading bothers my head. Small tasks are too much. Not being able to cook, wash dishes, clean... all these things are too much my head starts to hurt, confusion, pressure, dizzy. I have to go sit down then my talking gets confused and then head shaking side to side, eyes close, jaw locks, Im incontenent often, (very imbarrising).arm flapping, leg flailing, sometimes I get a jolt of electricity thru my body. The seizures are non- epileptic in nature, pain in my head at temples & near the occipital lower region, near the brain stem. I believe I had Tramodol reaction with other anastesia during knee surgery. While in recovery had a hard time waking up body shaking jaw locking breathing problem.They forced my jaw open and gave me Ativan. Waking up confused & scared from my head and body shaking. Giving me Tramodol for pain at home. Then more Tramodol at 6 weeks. Had a cold so took cold med and tramadol. Got really foggy in my brain. Simething wosnt right. Had sever pain in my head.Took Tramodol and a migrain pill got disorienated started mixing up words dizzy, had got sent to hospital had a seizure. Took Tramodol & st johns wort as a supplement. Felt severly not right had gone to doctors had a seizure sent to hospital. My thinking became mixed up and memory poor. Went to psychologist they said I had GAD generized anxiety disorder. My doc put me on SSri s Escitalopram the first one made my seizures head shaking arm flapping leg twitching and confusion worse. Then lexapro which caused worse seizures faster shaking and arms flappin and legs flailing , even worse headaches and memory loss and confusion especially when trying to concentraite. My seizures started out every 10-14 days apart each time with clusters of 3-5 each day in a month. I thought that was bad. When the SSRi s were added they became every 2-9 days with 2-5 each seizure clusters. I have a slow & fast metabolisim, gene cite tested. I belive that I have developed Tramodol Syndrom. Then developed into Seratonin Syndrom. I was very active a leader in my community thrived on big events and head of orginizations worked 50 hours a week and helped run our farm prior to having knee surgery. Now I cannot even going out without having a seizure. Even singing causes my breathing to change and then I have a seizure, prior to the surgery I was in my church choir and lead singer in my church. I have been having seizures for over a year now. My seizures last in total with clusters for close to an hour. The only thing that has helped is cyproheptadine 2mg.a day 1- 2x a day when I feel very overwelmened when I have to consentrate a lot or going out. Shopping is too much, riding in a car can be to much, even trying to read signs or technical reading is too much. I belive that the Tramadol & SSRI s has changed the chemistry in my head, causing the CNS system to malfuntion. The only thing that has helped me recently has been this seratonin reducer. The cypoheptadine has reduced the length of my seizures the last one was only 1/2 hour at the doctors office. Sleeping has become better. Before I would lie awake trying to sleep with my eyes closed not being able to fall asleep. I did not dream either. Im trying to detox with teas and a mix of mushrooms that seems to help my mind a bit and to relax to sleep. I also take black cohosh for menopause, as I am 58 years old, helps my mood swings and hot flashes. #1. My question is will I ever get better? ( i did not have anxiety before, now I get pain & pressure in my head confusion, I mix up words & sentences, then a seizure). #2. Will the seizures ever go away? #3. Will my memory and understanding improve? Thank you, Audrey Combs 4-3-2024