YES, NOW MANY 5MG TABLETS OF OLANZAPINE TABLETS DO I

YES, NOW MANY 5MG TABLETS OF OLANZAPINE TABLETS DO i HAVE TO TAKE TO KILL MYSELF, I HAVE NOTHING TO LIVE FOR ,,,,,M Y GRANDKIDS HAT ME, MY OLDER SONE IS FED UP WITH MY DEPRESSON AND MY HUSBAND OF 45 YRS JUST TELLS PEOPLE THAT i AM A BIT DOWN. WELL i HAVE B EEN GETTING MORE AND MORE DEPRESS3ED FOR OVER A MONTH NOW. MY DR. HAS ME ON CELEXA AS WELL AS OLANZAPINE.......I AM MORE DEPRESSED NOW WITH NO HOPE OR FAMILY SUPPORT IN SIGHT. MY FAMILY LOVES ME....BUT DONT EVEN TRY TO UNDERSTAND MY DEPRESSION. SO BEST SOLUTION.....TAKE A BUNCH OF PILLS AND NOT WAKE UP...THEY ARE ALL BETTER OFF WITHOUT ME. I JUST DONT KNOW HOW MANY T TAKE AND AM REALLY SCARED. THX AND GOODBYE BRENDA